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Venting...

Posted on 2010.05.05 at 01:15
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It amazes me how malicious some people are, both men and women. I've had men hit on me before and act like total douche bags but this particular one today really took the cake so to speak. He's trying to push my buttons which isn't cool. I just found out I am hypoglycemic like over a week ago and it looks like Ive had it all my life. I'm trying to be calm, relax and get myself to feeling better because I constantly feel like total shit. I honestly feel like a rag being dragged about, then he comes along and cause me to get angry. I was shaky for a while. This is wrong. I told him that if I have an attack and get into a coma it's his fault. I'm tired of being tough all the time or trying to be. I've always been a sick girl. Had pneumonia numerous times as a kid, always felt bad, and generally always had symptoms of hypoglycemia since I can remember, especially the crying spells and mental fog. Plus there is a long line of health issues leading up to now. Thanks to my dad for telling me I needed to be tough I always tried to portray the persona that I could handle anything. The truth is I can't. I can't handle it all. I feel bad, I have to deal with blurry vision on occasion, feeling dizzy, loosing my concentration, depressive spells, insomnia, fatigue and the list goes on. I'm tired of dealing with malicious people.

If he gets a kick out making an already sick girl feel even worse than she already does than he is truly evil. Like I said, I am just trying to do what I can to get myself on tract to being able to function and then this drama occurs. He isn't worth repeating what he did or has done but I needed to just let it out. Sometimes people think I am always happy or chipper. I'm not. I just hide it well...

My mom's B-day Gift

Posted on 2010.04.26 at 22:05
Current Mood: contemplativecontemplative
Current Music: Assemblage 23
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My mother's birthday is coming up this Thursday. I'm not good at keeping surprises so I just couldn't help myself. I had to give her the gift I made her. She loves and collects antique Mammies so I made her one. It's actually the largest doll I have made so far. It made her so happy and she cried too. We are both going through a tough time together. It hurts my mother a lot to have found out I have hypoglycemia, but we are on the path of getting me to feel tip top pretty soon. She just wishes she had know sooner, and well so do I.

I don't have the measurements for the Mammie but I did take two shody photos of my doll. I'm going to start making my dolls much larger than before now. It's the same concept and I'm not sure why it hadn't dawned on me before. My next creation will be a larger version of a Day of the Dead bride I sold a few months ago. It was a tiny couple, bride and groom. I hope the lady who bought them is very happy with my babies. She will be about the same size as this but dressed as a bride. I might start making more Mammies for my shop too. She is too darn cute. She needs more of her kind out there.






Finished Guitar and Nesting Dolls

Posted on 2010.04.23 at 02:28
Current Mood: sleepysleepy
Current Music: Murderdolls
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I finally finished the project in my last post, the guitar. It came out great, but then again my opinion is biased since I'm the one who spent time on this piece.

For over a week, possibly week and a half, I worked on another project as well. I've always had a fascination with nesting dolls since my mother bought me one in Fredericksburg, Tx. Unfortunately I only own one set but I hope to expand my collection, some day. I've had the notion to try and create my own and a few months back I found a plain wooden set of six nesting dolls at Hobby Lobby, all ready to be painted. I finally got to working on them. I used a Day of the Dead theme with them. They look like pale faced skeleton ladies with silver bonnets, black dress, blushed cheeks and dark lips. Over all, I think they're very cute. I just posted them for sale on Etsy about two days ago.

I bought a new set and I already have an idea as to how I will decorate my next project.

Creating all this stuff helps me forget I constantly feel tired. Rarely do I feel well. Actually, this past Monday I found out I was hypoglycemic. I'm not sick enough to need medication, but I have to monitor what I eat and when I eat it. It isn't so bad and I am already getting an idea as to what foods affect me. It's amazing, but I think I might have to give up Jasmine Green Tea. This is torture. It would be wise to attempt a food journal for the next two weeks as recommended so I can get a better understand of what makes me feel more alive and what drags me down.

If anyone doesn't know what hypoglycemia is, it is low blood sugar. It means my blood sugar drops and it can even be dangerous if not taken care of. I'm not one to pass out constantly but I tend to feel light headed and dizzy ALOT. That's no fun.
Time for some crafty photos...Collapse )

Till next time...=)

Skeleton Guitar

Posted on 2010.04.01 at 01:44
Current Mood: calmcalm
Current Music: Gestapo 666 - The Victory of Darkness and Death
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A few months ago I was struck with the idea of painting an old acoustic guitar I own. I've had it since I was a child but it's been broken for years just sitting around in my closet. Randomly one day, like most of my creative ideas, it seemed like a great idea to paint it black with white detailing resembling a rib cage/spine. I finally got working on the project this past week. The progress I have made so far has been several coats of paint and the skeleton details. I have two photos to share but I have much more to work on.

 
Progress photos...Collapse )

Hello LJ world

Posted on 2010.03.25 at 14:06
Current Mood: creativecreative
Current Music: Assemblage 23 - Maps of Reality
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Well, I'm not sure what is wrong with LJ. I had just posted an entry yesterday and it's gone so here I go again with my reintroduction.

It's been a while since I post on LJ, years actually. I got bored with it and kept away. I decided to come back since I actually have something interesting to blog about, my art work. I enjoy making dolls and painting. I sell my items on Etsy and Ebay. The links can be found on my journal.

I intend to keep up every other day with whatever I am working on and hopefully meet other creative individuals who may also have shops on Etsy. For now I will keep this short and simple.