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Venting...

Posted on 2010.05.05 at 01:15
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It amazes me how malicious some people are, both men and women. I've had men hit on me before and act like total douche bags but this particular one today really took the cake so to speak. He's trying to push my buttons which isn't cool. I just found out I am hypoglycemic like over a week ago and it looks like Ive had it all my life. I'm trying to be calm, relax and get myself to feeling better because I constantly feel like total shit. I honestly feel like a rag being dragged about, then he comes along and cause me to get angry. I was shaky for a while. This is wrong. I told him that if I have an attack and get into a coma it's his fault. I'm tired of being tough all the time or trying to be. I've always been a sick girl. Had pneumonia numerous times as a kid, always felt bad, and generally always had symptoms of hypoglycemia since I can remember, especially the crying spells and mental fog. Plus there is a long line of health issues leading up to now. Thanks to my dad for telling me I needed to be tough I always tried to portray the persona that I could handle anything. The truth is I can't. I can't handle it all. I feel bad, I have to deal with blurry vision on occasion, feeling dizzy, loosing my concentration, depressive spells, insomnia, fatigue and the list goes on. I'm tired of dealing with malicious people.

If he gets a kick out making an already sick girl feel even worse than she already does than he is truly evil. Like I said, I am just trying to do what I can to get myself on tract to being able to function and then this drama occurs. He isn't worth repeating what he did or has done but I needed to just let it out. Sometimes people think I am always happy or chipper. I'm not. I just hide it well...

Comments:


Jade
emeraldsrain at 2010-05-05 06:24 (UTC) (Link)
And they wonder why us females can be such a bitch sometimes! I swear, guys have no clue the shit we have to put up with guys.

I'm wondering how your diet is? Do you eat really healthy? I ask this because I used to be sick ALL THE TIME growing up. Finally, in my early twenties, I finally did a 180 and started eating incredibly healthy. Now I hardly ever get sick. And when I do, it's usually after I've smoked pot and drank too much or something stupid like that.
jacquelinedawn
jacquelinedawn at 2010-05-05 06:35 (UTC) (Link)
Actually I have always eaten pretty healthy but I have had some issues with my appearance. I've crash dieted, skipped meals and the like to the extreme at times which is something hypoglycemics should avoid! I know this now and it makes sense why I got so bad when I hit my teens up until now, 26. I'm more comfortable with who I am and I realize I have to take care of myself. I don't wish to be a size 0 anymore. I can't complain, I'm a size 3 =P

It's a matter of eating healthy and at the right time. 5-6 small meals a day, snacks along with natural remedies like licorice root, sprirulina, and chromium taken at the right time of day will eventually help get me on track. It'll be a process and something I must maintain.
Jade
emeraldsrain at 2010-05-05 07:10 (UTC) (Link)
Yes, I'm hyperglicemic too (however the hell you spell that). I now instinctively eat small meals all day. I eat almost every hour! It's the only way I can stay energized. But like I said, they're very small meals. I think it's an excellent way to stay skinny actually, because your stomach stays small.
jacquelinedawn
jacquelinedawn at 2010-05-06 04:42 (UTC) (Link)
Haha, yeah it's a long word. =P

When did you find out you had it?

That's great advice. Right now I'm eating like every 3-4 hours. 4 meals, 2 snacks and half a bottle of Boost before bed (Dr. recommended that). I think I'll try eating every 1-2 hours. I'm still struggling with fatigue and headaches. Got my magnesium today, which is something else I needed.
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